The Last Piece of the Puzzle
I blogged about him being an emotional vampire and that he just wanted to be the baby and me the mommy. But as I dwell in it, the more things…
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May 23, 2025
The Liminal Stage
I'm stuck here. My old self is basically dead, but my new self isn't ready for prime time. There's an uncertainty, ambiguous neutrality, a lack of energy... a fog that…
May 13, 2025
It’s Finally Happening
I have no idea what is happening to my brain, but I like it. I've been a depressed, sad, puddle of self pity and anxiety for an entire year. And…
May 9, 2025
Get MAD
I feel bipolar today. Or manic, is it mania? Finally, a spark. A spark of the old me. A spark that got me moving. The reason is sort of... depressing…
May 8, 2025
The Narcissistic Discard
I thought I had been depressed for the last year. But I'm finally getting the news that it wasn't depression. It was complex trauma. My ex and I were living…
May 6, 2025
T-R-A-U-M-A
I wasn't going to talk about trauma anymore, but that squatter won't leave. No, it's not fun to stay here. It's like I'm straddling two worlds. My old life, which…
May 1, 2025
Remain Seated Please
I woke up this morning with the desire and intention to move on. I feel like the chapter of actively expressing my pain and abuse should close now. That open…
April 28, 2025
The Miscarriage
This story is so absurd, I have to share it. I feel compelled to share it. So, my husband and I almost broke up one other time, in 2011. He…
April 27, 2025
Lexapro Has Left the Building
Want to know how sensitive I am?? I'm down to 2.5mg of Lexapro, stepping down from 10mg in a month. And in the last two days, peanut butter and jelly…
April 26, 2025
Understanding the Collapse
I've been running a spiritual marathon. 20 years of emotional neglect and emotional abuse from my family. 23 years of emotional neglect, emotional abuse, control, sexual abuse and covert narcissistic…
April 26, 2025