I Can’t Pretend
I realize that this is part of the coming out of trauma thing, but I can't pretend that everything is ok or that everything is going to be ok. I…
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April 2, 2025
The Purge
When I realized that I might want to leave, I first told my favorite neighbor. Gave her all the details. Her reaction was so disappointing. "You knew what your married.…
April 1, 2025
Spiritually Sensitive People
Or highly perceptive people, highly sensitive, empathetic or energetically sensitive people. Common motifs: 1. Deep Emotional Awareness You feel emotions — yours and others’ — more vividly and fully. This is…
March 31, 2025
I Bet You Were a Terrible Wife
I get this a lot on TikTok and Reddit. "You must not be some big prize if you say he was that way." "Men are more physically abused in a…
March 31, 2025
For the Hundredth Time Yes, it WAS Abuse
It seems like I can't make it a couple of days without asking ChatGPT or my therapist how it could have been abuse.I just don't believe it. I feel like…
March 30, 2025
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I was Punished for Having Needs
My mom had me to keep my father. When he left, she didn't seem to want the responsibility of a child. Especially because her needs weren't met when she was…
March 27, 2025
Was it Abuse?
Was It Abuse? I ask myself this every day. Was it really abuse? Am I making it a bigger deal than it was? Was he just… emotionally immature? Detached? Depressed?…
March 24, 2025
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So, You Want to Start Your Awakening?
Several people have asked me how my awakening started or how they could get theirs to start. I'm not absolutely sure because mine was completely involuntary, but I can give…
March 21, 2025
Journal Entry 3/16/2025
It's been almost a year since we stood in our driveway and he talked to me like I was a stranger. His whispering voice, his head tilt, his robotic movements.…
March 16, 2025
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How to Navigate the Blog
Blue Dress World | The Map It made sense to me to format my journey into a map of sorts. A little bit theme park, a little bit hero's journey…
May 22, 2023