Companionship Contemplation
I go over over again in my head, do I even want a man, do I even want a partner? My brain has been cataloging ex boyfriends in my dreams.…
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May 20, 2025
Only Hope Can Keep Me Together
The other morning, I had the lyrics to Message in a Bottle by The Police stuck in my head from the moment of waking. Two things... Sting always shows up.…
May 18, 2025
Total Burnout – Rough Patch
I haven't gotten out of bed today. The dog would be making picket signs if she could. I have zero desire to do anything. I used to walk several miles…
May 16, 2025
What Would a Healthy Woman Do?
I was told in therapy that I had a "very big heart". Which translates to, I'm gullible. I trust people's words, not their actions. But I'm learning that in order…
May 13, 2025
Happy Mother’s Day to ME
I basically raised myself. And I raised my mother, too. Growing up, I had to make myself small, quiet. She didn't want to be bothered by me unless we were…
May 11, 2025
Get MAD
I feel bipolar today. Or manic, is it mania? Finally, a spark. A spark of the old me. A spark that got me moving. The reason is sort of... depressing…
May 8, 2025
Limbo is Where the Heart is
I haven't put a lot of thought into decorating or nesting in this rental. I didn't want to settle because my dream is to have a house of my own.…
April 29, 2025
Remain Seated Please
I woke up this morning with the desire and intention to move on. I feel like the chapter of actively expressing my pain and abuse should close now. That open…
April 28, 2025
Being Awake Sucks
Days like today I miss the anxiety-ridden, codependent, insecure, asleep version of myself. I was too busy chasing dopamine, approval and love to even be aware of anything else. Pure…
April 20, 2025