The Narcissistic Discard
I thought I had been depressed for the last year. But I'm finally getting the news that it wasn't depression. It was complex trauma. My ex and I were living…
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May 6, 2025
T-R-A-U-M-A
I wasn't going to talk about trauma anymore, but that squatter won't leave. No, it's not fun to stay here. It's like I'm straddling two worlds. My old life, which…
May 1, 2025
Limbo is Where the Heart is
I haven't put a lot of thought into decorating or nesting in this rental. I didn't want to settle because my dream is to have a house of my own.…
April 29, 2025
Remain Seated Please
I woke up this morning with the desire and intention to move on. I feel like the chapter of actively expressing my pain and abuse should close now. That open…
April 28, 2025
The Story of Jim
I met Jim on December 27, 1991. It was at a teenager retreat with a religious theme at a very quaint stone church. He was quiet, adorable and smelled amazing.…
April 26, 2025
Understanding the Collapse
I've been running a spiritual marathon. 20 years of emotional neglect and emotional abuse from my family. 23 years of emotional neglect, emotional abuse, control, sexual abuse and covert narcissistic…
April 26, 2025
Menopause Changed Me
Well, I'm not in full menopause but the peri one. I don't know that much about it, frankly. But I do know, right around the time I turned 40, things…
April 22, 2025
Now What?
I woke up this morning to a slew of emails... "we're in this together", "hard news..." "unprecedented times". The tariffs are going to kill my business. I thought I had…
April 22, 2025
Being Awake Sucks
Days like today I miss the anxiety-ridden, codependent, insecure, asleep version of myself. I was too busy chasing dopamine, approval and love to even be aware of anything else. Pure…
April 20, 2025
La Cage Aux Corps
My Autonomy Threatened Him Most. His goal was to keep me stuck. He was depressed because I would't sleep with him. He was depressed because my body was no longer…
April 18, 2025