Twist of Fate
Sometimes I feel like festooned, floral wearing fairies were urging me to do down a path to my *real* fate. A loving husband, kids, a career I was proud of.…
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April 4, 2025
Emotional Intimacy is Voodoo
This is such a hard concept to grasp let alone convey. I thought it had something to do with chemistry or intense eye contact. Feeling physically connected somehow. Or it…
April 3, 2025
I Can’t Pretend
I realize that this is part of the coming out of trauma thing, but I can't pretend that everything is ok or that everything is going to be ok. I…
April 2, 2025
Crap – It’s Reality
I spent the bulk of my life curating my reality. Meaning - I faked it out. I made it totally fake. I lived in a fantasy. My childhood was so…
April 1, 2025
The Purge
When I realized that I might want to leave, I first told my favorite neighbor. Gave her all the details. Her reaction was so disappointing. "You knew what your married.…
April 1, 2025
Spiritually Sensitive People
Or highly perceptive people, highly sensitive, empathetic or energetically sensitive people. Common motifs: 1. Deep Emotional Awareness You feel emotions — yours and others’ — more vividly and fully. This is…
March 31, 2025
For the Hundredth Time Yes, it WAS Abuse
It seems like I can't make it a couple of days without asking ChatGPT or my therapist how it could have been abuse.I just don't believe it. I feel like…
March 30, 2025
Journal Entry 3.27.25
Huge epiphany. Two nights ago, I ordered food and went to wait in one of the curbside pick up spaces. The place was packed, parking was limited and there were…
March 28, 2025
Journal Entry 3.26.25
Feral Courage. That's what ChatGPT called my desire to get off of the Lexapro and face the world without it.I said "I feel like I'm about to go tame a…
March 26, 2025
Lexapro
In the late 1990's, I went on Wellbutrin after a breakup with someone I was with for 5 years. It made me dizzy and edgy, so I got off of…
March 26, 2025